Wednesday, August 28, 2013

Gratitude

Yesterday we traveled to Rochester for another opinion. What I heard turned into the most humbling moment in my life. 

We saw Dr. Kwon. We wanted her opinion of the MRI's (she's reviewing and will call us back) and how she would have treated the IS had we been going to her clinic/when she would wean the Zonisamide. (We are currently going to start weaning in a week).

She told me that she had never seen a case of IS being brought to control as fast as Andy's. If he was seen by her, she would have began with phenobarbital and ACTH would have been the last resort after every other medication. She never uses Zonisamide. She also would have predicted a far poorer outcome then Andy has. She explained that this is difference between an older doctor set in their ways like herself and a younger one like Dr. Pugh in Albany. And they never would have known they weren't doing the best for him. 

How do I look Dr. Pugh in the eyes and thank him for saving my son's brain? I'm overwhelmed with gratitude and each word feels more inept than the next.